Finding Me

Hear my prayer, O Lord; listen to my cry for mercy. In the day of my trouble I will call to you, for you will answer me.

— Psalm 86:6-7

Well, it's day 19 and there is 72 hours left of the 21 day to Health and Wellness.

I was reflecting this morning on this experience. This is the Second time to take this journey.

I have found that It has become more natural and not a battle to look for healthier choices when I'm choosing foods. I have no disappointment or regrets when I pass up fried foods or Non nutritional foods i.e. cake, pie, ice cream. I'm actually seeking fresh foods, steamed vegetables... leaner meats. Umm, Still a little hesitancy on the bread thing when in a restaurant. But, I see that I ask for Balsamic Vinegar and Olive Oil instead of butter. (well, if it's available).

I have found that I have read and prayed more and it's again more natural. I have my bible open and available where I find myself sitting. I seek to read before bed, I'm waking up talking with the Lord.

I have found that my BLog/Journal is almost a habit that I look forward to each day. It centers me for the day and set's me on the right path.

I have found that I speaking the word of God is powerful. When I look at a food or think about eating (when I'm not hungry) Speaking out WORKS. I need God's strength to overcome the habit of feeding my face out of board-um, unhappiness, trying to fill a void. It's crazy but I repeat like I have "tourettes syndrome".. saying It won't satisfy me "only God can satisfy me" over and over or "greater is he in me than he that is in that food" speaking out the day's scripture verse.

I have found that exercise is what strengthens me when it comes to making healthy food choices. I have no desire after a work out to eat unhealthy foods. In fact it repulses me.

But, I have found that I have to MAKE time, Make exercise a priority. Find opportunities to MOVE. Even if it's doing squats while waiting for my coffee to drip into my cup!

I have found that changing my behaviors and patterns that I've had for 30++ years will take more than 21 days. It'll take several 21 days.

I have found that I feel so much healthier and FREE from the bondage of bad habits. (eating unhealthy foods and not exercising and not spending Time with my Savior)

I have found me.

I pray that you have learned and discovered new truths in this journey and will make a I’m cross and follow HIM, Body, Mind and Spirit.

Salute! To your Health and Wellness.

I’m off and riding. Soon I’ll be on the Big Girl Bike!

That's all folks

ahhh freak,

I woke this am and saw I'm up a couple pounds! ah freak

my initial reaction besides "ah freak" is "and I didn't eat that unhealthy" but net thought was to put me in check....

"but I didn't get in any exercise and or journalize"

then I think

ah, ya!... ummm, well maybe the two beers (light 110 calories) didn't help.

and eating the WHOLE prime rib dip sandwich- bread and all at the Restaurant.

Even though, when it came the though occurred to do like I had read. Ask for a to go container as soon as I got the sandwich so I'd only eat half. Should have could have since I was SO full after the 1st half and ate the 2nd half only because it "tasted good". I was uncomfortably full after eating "bummer"

I was at war with me (what's new) since I said to myself... "ah, it's a healthy choice.. protein that I need"

yet not admitting I was eating the roll since it was all about the "comfort of eating it" "the lust of the moment"

Yap, and the excuse for the beers was that I was taking a power boat ride in the Bay that had 1-2 foot swells from other boats, choppy ride and I NEEDED TO RELAX. It was NOT an enjoyable thing and ... too bad I had to suck it up since we were with other people. Another Excuse.

In consolation for myself, I did had a good low carb egg dish for breakfast. (an attempt to regain my sense of not feeling like a total failure)

I did drink more than 3 - 18 oz glasses of water.

But, the truth is

I didn't do a few of the right things to make a difference.

WHY... is always the question to myself.

Well, I was ok at breakfast.... just lalala ing to myself about the day.

by the time I hit the resturant for lunch I was wawawa ing about the stupid boat ride that was NOT fun. So, I consoled myself (unconsciously) at lunch. oh, the beer was what I took on the boat knowing I was going to wawawa...

Then, in the evening I think I was still a little whinning about not getting my way with what I wanted to do.... (personal unhappiness about not having control on things that I have going on around me).

Ah, the spiritual battle fell into my physical battle with ME!

And look who suffers.... ME.

I desperately want to have HEALTHY HABITS that take over ME and rule ME.

What I have learned from my 21 days journey is that - NO guilt... just slap my self in the head and say "

I could of had a V 8" and move on and TRY AGAIN TODAY..

"that's all folks"

The Human Spirit

What is it that takes a person to a new level of achievement?

What is the trigger that switches on our passion?

What is it that overcomes "what" has held us back?

No regrets

Be the best

Make each moment count

Balance

Achievement

Passion

Thirst

Knowledge

Wisdom

Energy

Seeking that which is pure, honest, lovely, true

Thank you Lord for being the Light

I choose to move toward the LIGHT! Blind me with your love

Overcome

I cried that I had no shoes until I saw

someone without feet.

Well, I do love my shoes! But Having no feet is still no excuse for feeling sorry for yourself. There are many examples of people who overcame their physical limitations. So why then do we make excuses?

No excuses please!

When there is a Will there IS a Way.

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Story:

I had a patient seeking an appointment. She said to me as we spoke on the phone.

I'm so weak and tired, I'm sleeping 10-12 hours a day

I've gained 30 pounds.....

I just can't exercise because I have problem with my right foot.

I'm just so tired, It's not right... something is wrong.

Then I looked at her history and saw she was 5'7" and weight was 325lbs and has hypertension.

I asked if she had been taking her blood pressure medication

Her quick answer was No

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My heart broke for this women. I heard her cry for help, I heard her very sad voice,

and I knew what was happening.

She is on a self destruct mission! All signs / symptoms point to a person who

has no love for themselves. (possible emotional trauma in their life, a life of unforgiveness, a life of No hope)

Signs of depression and self destruction is prevalent today in our world.

Matthew 22:39

... 'Love your neighbor as yourself

We are to love ourselves.

Christ loves us - We are worthy of his love

We are valuable children of the Living God

Forgive other's - Forgive ourself

Yes, we need to forgive ourself! Not loving ourself is sometimes a result of not forgiving ourselves. Not seeing ourself as worthy of love and forgiveness

My heart ached that I couldn't reach out and tell her about my Lord and Savior.

The one who LOVES her - The one who really knows her and Loves her.

Christ is the only hope for her. Not a diet plan, Medication for depression...

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Lord, I pray for the opportunity for me to use my knowledge of nursing and my knowledge of YOU to reach out and touch people.

To be their link to a life of hope, joy and peace. The life you intended for all of us.

AMEN

Walking in Any Weather

Just as the weather can change in an hour.... so can my thoughts, energy and actions.

Like the weather I'm constantly subject to change.

One minute Sunny disposition, full of a warm light breeze... carefree, hopeful and full of life.

Then next the grey clouds begin to drift in... (sometimes I see it coming, sometimes it's a word or phone call from someone). I feel my soul beginning to become heavy like the grey clouds that are ready to burst with tears, or sorrow.

Sometimes these storms are filled with angry thunder and lightening.

Oh, LORD..... no matter what fills the sky, you are ALWAY's shinning. Whether it's the light of the Moon or Sun.... your behind every cloud, every storm.... YOU ALWAYS there.

I need to hold tight during these changes. I need to focus on the fact your above any storm. You have a rainbow waiting for ME! A big, Vibrant Colored Rainbow with your PROMISE. Your promise that you will shelter me during those dreary, cold, windy stormy times.

Therefore when I see the clouds rolling in, I pray Lord that you awaken my Spirit to the knowledge that you are THERE! Waiting for me to Take refuge in Your arms. Waiting for you to fill me with your warmth and Sunshine. Your above every cloud!

No matter what MY BODY see's or feels - YOU are in me filling me with your PERFECT LOVE. The Love that cast out ALL FEAR.

Today, as I see those clouds forming (seeing the scale) I will look into your FACE and SEE the TRUTH.

I am full of light and Sunshine when I seek YOU with all my Heart, Soul and Spirit and BODY! I will walk by FAITH not by SIGHT!

2 Corinthians 5:7

For we walk by faith, not by sight

You're my hope and my Salvation.

Unto you I commit this day, my ways, my thoughts, my being.

ALL my choices will then reflect your power and glory in my life.

I'm now ready to put on my smile, put on my workout clothes and feed my body and soul GOOD THINGS!

I'm ready to start WALKING!!!

AMEN

2 Corinthians 9:8

And God is able to make all grace abound to you,

so that always having all sufficiency in everything,

you may have an abundance for every good deed;